myriad colors and waves

Have you ever had this feeling, after a thrilling experience, or a mind-altering or potentially life-changing conversation, of the strangeness in this dichotomy of you and the world, how you feel changed but the world around you is the same it was before that experience or conversation ever took place? It was as though you’ve expected for the entire world around you to be different. Expected to have emails flooding your inbox, or to become suddenly inundated with new tasks to accomplish, or to have your cell phone start ringing off the hook, or a violent thunderstorm to arise within seconds outside your window… some torrent to signal the beginning of something great, something that the whole world would be responding to, such change that would reflect what is going on in your soul. And yet, quizzically, so it seems at this moment to you, the rest of the world has continued on quietly. The inbox is empty, the cell phone is silent, and the world is the same it was but a short time ago. You are still here, the same place that is normal and expected and habitual, abiding and waiting, and yet your heart is running, your mind and soul racing, in a tempestuous, elevating excitation. Though the world cannot know the joy in your heart and the uncertainty that mixes it around in myriad colors and waves of intensity, things are different, the eyes you look through see things differently... Though the world has the appearance of being the same and ordinary, just below the surface is swelling something large and indescribable. You begin to feel that the world just might be a different place after all, even with the empty inbox and quiet telephone…